I like to look at the act of trimming one's pubic hair as a delicate artform.
One that should only be done by skilled artisans or people with entirely way too much freetime on their hands.
It's kinda like taking care of a bonsai tree.
Trim too much and it just doesn't look right.
Definitely want to avoid damaging the branches too.

Two weeks, empty household.
Parents're in the homeland visiting now.
Help me fill it or keep me out of it please.
Depression's annoying when it hits me.

Nights like this make me wish I had booty calls available to me.
Or at least be the type of person to make use of them.

Still learning things on a daily basis and that's truly a great thing about life.
Today I learned that stress can cause pubic hair to turn white too.
Just waiting to see an armpit hair turn white now.

I have alot of alcohol now.
Let's share.

Tuesday is Mardi Gras I believe.
Can't enjoy my first opportunity as a 21+ to enjoy it as a single downtown because of work.
Heard it sucks though.
But it would've been a nice fix for my need for live boobie action.
At least there's always strip clubs.

The Random Quote:
"It's official. My penis is only for show now." - Anonymous

From what I've managed to see of the current season of American Idol, I can admit one thing.
Yes.
Yes I'm jealous.
But not of Little Lauren's boy.
He killed my song.
Just not as badly as last year.

I'm jealous of Ace.
'Cuz I can't pull off the pout without looking goofy.
And he can attract women of his own age based on looks alone.

I'm jealous of Sway.
'Cuz he's got some crazy vocal control.
And he's been putting out quality R&B w/ his groups since the 90's.

Finally, I'm jealous of Ryan Seacrest.
'Cuz he makes me wonder if I can make a career out of saying my last name followed by the word "out" also.
How do you get paid to do that?
Does having the majority of the world think you're homosexual help any?

It's because of Gwen Stefani I am no longer confident when I spell out "Banana."

Gonna miss you Don Knotts.

The Random Quote:
"I'm just people watching the other people watching me." - Jack Johnson

I've been posting more consistently on my blog over at MySpace the past few weeks.
Because they offer the option of a preferred list so that my complete honesty (i.e. venting) isn't made readily available to the public out of respect to the people I'm talking about.
Even if they don't have any for me.

An excerpt of what everyone not on my preferred list is missing out on:

Ladies, please grab at your guy's penis.
Act cock hungry.
Talk about your sexual fantasies out of the blue without prompting.
Dress up every once in awhile for him.
Send him sexy pictures every once in awhile.
Make a naughty calendar.
Give him a lapdance.
Invite a friend over and put on a show for him.
Make that show interactive.
Make noises in bed.
Just do something to make him feel wanted and sexy.
Something to make him feel like his penis is the world to you.
Just like how he views you.
His world.
Who he is lost without.

Enthusiasm is a very sexy thing.
It's also very needed.
Because sex should be fun, not work.

If you'd like to be preferred, message me.

The Random Quote:
"It wasn't me it was you." - Jack Johnson

Came across an epiphany, if you will, last night during a conversation.
I'm just in zombie mode going through the routines right now.

Try to sleep, exercise, work, flirt with anything that has a set of healthy breasts, two legs, and is legal.
Mix in food, trips to a restroom, and the occasional night of bar hopping sporadically.
Rinse, wash, repeat.
My weekly routine.
I miss having a purpose in my life.
At least on a day to day basis.
Not much to really focus on until next year since acting's slow right now.

Go figure.

So yea, halfway through work today, in mid-flirt with a couple of sisterly beauties, my voice starts to give out.
Why?
Don't know, it just happens to me sometimes.
When I get back from my lunch break, my voice is pretty much gone.
End up writing little notes on the receipts people don't want.

"Losing voice, sorry."
"Thanks"
"Can I see your ID?"
"Need a copy of the receipt?"
"You're so beautiful, I'm speechless"
"Mime class"

Hurrah for mime class to help me communicate answers effectively to customers queries.

Yes.
Yes. I did use the speechless note.
Apparently, I'm so dashingly handsome and charming I made a few women become klutzy.
That made the day go by easier.

Voice still non-existent.
How am I supposed to sing-a-long w/ Jack Johnson now?

Speaking of singing, did anyone tape American Idol tonight?
Caught the end of it, some of the guys sounded really good.
'Cept for the guy that killed one of my songs.
Stop butchering "One Last Cry" America.
Please.

I'm sneezing too much.
Stop thinking about me so often.

Better yet, call me up.
There's no real danger of catching me while I'm asleep unless it's around 4am.
Even if that were the case, I'd still be happy to hear a familiar voice.

Pretty sure there's a legitimate reason I've only been posting every other day recently.
Other than the fact I'm running out of random quotes to use.
Subconsciously, I'm telling myself I'm not "odd" by posting on only even days.

That not good enough for you?
Me neither.

Just trying my best to put out only fun posts and avoid sounding emo or posting a day-to-day account of my life.

"Today I smacked a monkey and made him my bitch. Than I proceeded to teach a tribe of penguins the use of firearms."

You'd figure that with this much freetime available to me, I'd be able to pump out quality posts on a consistent basis.

Damn sporadic moments of depression.

The Random Quote:
"Without you I was broken, but I'd rather be broke down with you by my side." - Jack Johnson

The Wild Truth - Let It All Fall Down

I'm not angry with you now
I'm just letting you know how it is
And I won't even think twice
I was your steadfastest friend to the end
Now I can't even talk nice

Let it all fall down
Let the threads come undone
Let it all fall down
Unravel it

I'm not looking at you now
Doesn't mean that you're not on my mind
But you took things for granted
And that turned me to stone

Let it all fall down
Let the threads come undone
Let it all fall down
Unravel it

E-mails and eloquence
Offered in self-defense
Cactus and consequence
Look at the love you've spent
searching for Judas Kiss
When that taste was on your lips

Let it all fall down
Let the threads come undone
Let it all fall down, down, down...

I'm just letting you know how it is
--------------------------------

My favorite off of The Wild Truth's album This Golden Era
A good CD that I recommend you pick up if you ever come across it.
To truly appreciate how great these guys are though, you have to see them live.

So yea, I want something better to do than sitting around at home and being sick after I drop off my brother at the train station today.
Any suggestions?

Still need a volunteer zoo buddy.
14 months of free admission to The Wild Animal Park AND The San Diego Zoo.

Need something to do Thursday night and Friday also.

That's pretty much it.

The Random Quote:
"I can tell that we are gonna be friends." - Jack Johnson

Yes.
Yes I did call in sick to work today.
Anybody wanna take care of me?
I miss having a nurse in training.

My brother gave me a virus the other day via AIM before coming home this weekend.
Now I'm sick.
*Ba-dum Pssh*
Damn immune system.

And now quality R&B from the mid 90's

Keith Martin - Never Find Someone Like You

Girl you take my breath away
And when I'm with someone new
I'd rather be here with you, baby forever
My heart belongs to you,
'Cuz I think about you all the time
You know my love is true when we're together
I played around girl and I made you cry
When I looked up you were saying good-bye
I'm begging you please, I need you so bad
Don't leave me now you're the best girl I had

I'll never, I'll never find someone like you
I promise it's true love
I'll never, I'll never find someone like you,
'Cuz I love the way that you hold me
Girl I won't no I won't let you go
No one could ever do the way I would make love to you

All I have is just my heart and my feelings I give to you
That's all that I can do, is give you forever
Oh, you don't know that you're hurtin' me
'Cuz it's not just a sexual thang,
I want to share my dreams baby together
Girl I'm afraid just to give it all up
My hearts tellin' me to hold back on my love
But when you get close I just want you to know
I start to get weak and I can't let you go

I'll never, I'll never find someone like you
I promise it's true love
I'll never, I'll never find someone like you
'Cuz I love the way that you hold me
Girl I won't no I won't let you go
No one could ever do the way I would make love to you

Just your smile...
Tenderness
Girl I wont let you down (won't let you down)
Girl, I will never find no one that compares to you
Never find anyone...

I'll never, I'll never find someone like you
I promise it's true love
I'll never, I'll never find someone like you
'Cuz I love the way that you hold me.
Girl I won't no I won't let you go.
IÂ?ll never find someone like you
And I promise to honor you

I'll never, I'll never find someone like you
I promise it's true love
I'll never, I'll never find someone like you
'Cuz I love the way that you hold me
Girl I won't no I won't let you go
If I would spend my life through
I will never find someone like you
-------------------------------

So yea, that was "Our Song" for my first ex and I.
It wasn't because of the lyrics, at least not to my knowledge at the time.
It was just a great song from it's arrangement to his voice.
Just great.

Found out that two of the three years out of our relationship were complete bullshit on my birthday.
She pretty much sent me spiraling into my first nervous breakdown.
That's why the intense hatred for so long.
On advice of a good friend I finally let it go and started up communications with her again via e-mail.

It's because of her I give complete trust in my loved one.
Let her fool around as much as she'd like because as long as there aren't any rings or vows involved, it's perfectly fine with me.
Enjoy life to the fullest, as long as there is no emotional attachment involved w/ the others and you do it safely.
It comes with the age.
Hell, I'd probably be there recording the festivities for my own personal records.
I'm not the jealous boyfriend type.
Believe it or not.

So how is ex#1 doing?
Still a slut.
But I'm really tempted to take her up on her offers and double-wrap myself.
Because I've been left that frustrated from my last relationship.

Probably not going to though.
Nothing as far as third base for me.
In my eyes, home base involves alot of emotional commitment.
Because of the chances of pregnancy, I always ask myself would I be willing to spend my life w/ this woman?
After a sober 2nd analysis of the majority of the girls I met while bar hopping...
Not really.

So I didn't manage to get a post in for Friday.
Don't be getting greedy people.
You got a multi-post on Thursday.
Gardening, excercise, steak & eggs, cheap wine, watching movies, and battling the common cold tend to distract someone from posting one's thoughts on the internet.

The Random Quote:
"There is solace in the falling on the journey to my ground." - Micheal Tiernan

So yea, there was this stunning goddess that walked into work the other day.
The whole time she was looking around 'til the time she left, Star 94.1 was playing James Blunt's Beautiful.
I just found it funny because I learned that she was shopping for a gift for her boyfriend at the end of the song.
You ever feel like the radio stations are just offering you a soundtrack for your life?

Just curious, why is it that more women were interested in me as a virgin or in a relationship as opposed to single?

Mostly empty household while the famjam's in Utah celebrating my older brother's promotion to 1st Lieutenant this weekend.
Day off tomorrow.
Expect a lengthy, meaningful post.
Or not.

Somebody remind me to blink every once in awhile when I'm being a nightowl in front of the computer please.

Basic carbon copy of a myspace post tonight to serve as a filler.
Enjoy.

To truly appreciate my wit, you need to find me online.
Or intoxicated.
A combination of the two might lead to a conversation memorable to the point of epic proportions.
Normally quiet voice, extremely active mind.
Apologies to those that get bothered by that fact.

Excerpts from an AIM conversation last night:

Howslife14: always meet girls at bars
Howslife14: even girls that used to be guys at bars
Howslife14: haven't hit on any guys dressed as girls yet to my knowledge
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Howslife14: just let her know that a bigger head means bigger brain
Howslife14: bigger brain is sexier than bigger penis
aznriceboi858: lol
Howslife14: not true
Howslife14: but it's fun to convince people that
aznriceboi858: haha
---------
aznriceboi858: and well shes goin to class with me tom
aznriceboi858: and then dinner
Howslife14: guess you'll find out where you stand tomorrow
Howslife14: what time's dinner?
aznriceboi858: umm after class
aznriceboi858: so eight ish
Howslife14: I can try to take my break than to offer live support when you take a "restroom break"
Howslife14: hmm..... maybe not
Howslife14: that's usually when we're starting to close up shop
aznriceboi858: lol
Howslife14: g'luck w/ that though
aznriceboi858: thanks bro
aznriceboi858: ill need it
Howslife14: oh ye of lilttle confidence
Howslife14: no you don't
aznriceboi858: haha
Howslife14: set aside that luck for emergency use
Howslife14: like if you're penis is unresponsive in bed
aznriceboi858: lol
Howslife14: think I'm gonna be having some funky dreams tonight on account of the alcohol
Howslife14: should probably get at least 6hrs of sleep though
aznriceboi858: lol
aznriceboi858: nice
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Howslife14: want me to put in a prayer for you for tomorrow night's dinner w/ *****?
aznriceboi858: yes please
aznriceboi858: haha
aznriceboi858: thanks bro
Howslife14: no prob
Howslife14: making me waste a good prayer on a joke.....
aznriceboi858: haha

Feel free to IM me as long as you're not soliciting.

The Random Quote:
"Never leave me alone." - Nate Dogg

There's a reason my best friend is my best friend.
He'll take time away from his personal life to check up on me during my first Valentine's as a single in a long while.
Thank you for that.
Random calls from familiar voices are always greatly appreciated at this point of my life.

Happy Valentine's Day/Singles Awareness Day/Loner's Day/Arrow Through Heart Day everyone!
Think that covered all the bases.
For the couples out there, good advice and quality music from one of my personal heroes of the R&B world.

Brian McKnight - Cherish

Thinking back in time
Someone said that love was blind
But they were wrong
You just choose to not see
When it's right before your eyes
You'd rather compromise than give it all
Then it don't turn out the way it's suppose to be

Then time and time again you disappoint when she believes
Just do your best and give her what she needs
And cherish her love
Show her she's right where she belongs
Take care of her heart
Before she's gone
Cherish her love

It might be hard to conceive
You gotta see the forest despite the trees
Before it all burns down
Not telling you nothing you don't know
But she'll let you have your fun
But when a woman's done she's done
And then she'll go
Just when you're needing her the most

Time and time again you disappoint when she believes, oh yeah
Do all you can to give her what she needs
Cherish her love
Show her she's right where she belongs
Take care of her heart
Before she's gone
Cherish her love

And if you care about the weather
Keep her safe and warm
Let nothing in between stand in your way
They say it's calm inside the eye of the storm
Together come whatever, come what may
Just cherish her love
Show her she's right where she belongs
Take care of her heart
Before she's gone
Cherish her love
Show her she's right where she belongs
Take care of her heart
Before she's gone
Cherish her love
Show her she's right where she belongs
Take care of her heart
Before she's gone
Cherish her love, cherish her love
Cherish her love, cherish her love
---------------------------------

True dat Mr. McKnight.
True dat.

The rest of the schedule for my days is as follows:
Jogging, shopping, late sushi lunch, dinner with moms, San Marcos bar critiquing.

Feel free to join me if you'd like.
Just call up the party line.

The Random Quote:
"Just because you've seen the movie Hitch doesn't make you smoother with the ladies." - Anonymous

Why didn't I say White Chocolate breakup?
Why dammit?!
Why?!

At least I've got chocolate-covered sunflower seeds.

I figure that the $100 or so I would've spent on Sandee for tomorrow would be better put to use in the form of a gift for my mother.
Diamond necklace, bracelet, or earrings.
Not sure yet.
Hurrah for employee discounts!

Apparently, Valentine's Day/Singles Awareness Day is the most depressing day of the year for some people.
To those people, you have a few options to get you through the day:

1) Just wallow in the most depressing stuff you can find the whole day. Just try to purge all the negatives from your system.

2) Focus Valentine's Day on someone else besides a "significant other." Like your family.

3) Distract yourself with as many things as possible the whole day.

4) Get yourself a quick Valentine, at least for the night.

Just like our store, it's okay to mix and match until you find what suits you.
'Sides the gift hunting, I don't have much to do tomorrow except yard maintenence, reading, and the intake of alcohol.
Wether that's alone or with company remains to be seen.

Got a valentine's from my boss and his family.
Also got my Micheal Tiernan CDs in the mail today.
All good times.

The Random Quote:
"Been thinking alot today." - Ben Folds Five

It's not the job that bothers me.
It's some of the customers.
There are signs everywhere.
Please read them and don't be surprised at what you owe us.
Or be disgruntled if we ask you not to sample the candy.
And please stop giving me the evil-eye for doing my job.
Some of you kids make me worried 'bout the future.

So yea, two concerts that I am definitely attending for the month of March.
Feel free to join me if you'd like.

SD's New Acoustic Generation @ The Belly Up Tavern
Hosted by Micheal Tiernan
March 15th - 7:30pm
$5 cover charge.

Awesome Independant/Acoustic Music @ Cane's
Jane Lui, Lindsey Yung, Trevor Davis, and Ernie Halter
March 22nd - 7:00pm
$6 pre-sale
$7 cover
21+ show

The Random Quote:
"Yep, people are stupid." - Elbert Mose

x poopies x: what are u doing home on a fri nite??
Howslife14: same thing I do every friday night pinky
Howslife14: sit at home alone while being a bum
Howslife14: liquor store was closed by the time I got there so I couldn't take advantage of getting my paycheck today
x poopies x: haha nice animaniacs line there
x poopies x: that was good
Howslife14: yea, I don't really have the money and the sidekick to try to take over the world

I miss the Animaniacs.
A boxed set of their seasons would be an amazing gift for me.
Amazing.

So yea, got reminded of a game my brother's and I would play while watching T.V. growing up.
Claiming hot women on T.V. as ours.
My older brother was in high school, I was barely into junior high, and the youngest in elementary school.
He had no idea what he was doing in regards to the women on T.V.
Kinda like now.
Ooooooohhhhh.
Man I'm bored, and digressing.
At random times while sitting in front of the T.V. one of us would start slapping the television screen everytime we saw a beautiful women on screen and yelling "Mine!"
Beautiful at least to us.
Comedy when no one would jump at a woman on the screen.

Pretty much it.
And that concludes your glimpse into my childhood this time.

The Random Quote:
"I love Ada!" - Anonymous

Saw The Wild Truth and Michael Tiernan at Humphrey's Backstage Lounge tonight.
For those not dealing with personal or health issues, it's understandable.
For the ones that opted on going straight to the drinking scene instead of hanging out with me as a warm-up to tonight's festivities, shame on you.
Missed out on some great live music, and a good cd to jam to.
Maybe next time right?

Things I've learned while "buzzing":
-I have a tendency to sing along with music I know loudly to the compliments of my neighbors.
-I can hold alot of alcohol in my system.
-That alcohol runs up quite a tab.
-Especially when you're in "generous mode" and sharing in the good times with everyone around you.
-I need to stop bringing my debit/credit cards when there is going to be alcohol involved.
-I am not scared of driving in heavy fog conditions.
-I am scared of not making it home in time to empty the contents of my bladder into a toilet.
-I wish the North County music scene was more lively.
-The number of people not using their turn signals becomes more prevalent.
-I type well.
-The need to post my thoughts precedes that of the need to urinate.
-I need more weekly late night rituals with friends to keep me occupied.
-Maybe I should've focused on a musical career as opposed to an acting one.
-I miss having a reason to wake up everyday.
-My T.V.'s still broken.
-I need to pee.
-The CD you got from paying the cover charge tonight is awesome.
-I am still defaulting to YOU like I had been our entire relationship.
-I need another drink.
-I spend alot of cash on alcohol recently.
-I need to fold my laundry.
-A blowjob would be great right now.
-Not as great as a phone call from a familiar, friendly voice.
-I don't have a Valentine this year.
-I am bitter about not getting into culinary school this year.
-I feel weird when I actually get carded.
-Bartending school's a waste of cash.
-I have no idea when someone's hitting on me.
-I forgot the face that went with the number I got tonight.
-Feels nice to expel gas.
-Alcohol helps me sleep.
-I'm going to recycle alcohol now.

The Random Quote:
"Hell with this, I'm going to live!" - Serenity

Thursday, February 9th
Humphrey's Backstage Lounge
Wild Truth w/ Micheal Tiernan opening
$10 cover w/ cd in appreciation
8pm

I'm going.
Anybody wanna join me?
Fun filled night w/ great live music and myself liquored up.
Maybe it'll even make a nice warm up for PB.
Who knows?

The Random Quote:
"My life has become a boring pop song, everyone sing along." - Jack's Mannequin

Just wanted to say "Welcome" to all the new traffic I've been getting from old friends I got reacquainted with from switching to my old AIM screenname for a day.
Welcome.
My bad for neglecting to tell you of the screenname switch.
Thought I did.
Probably gonna go senile when I'm older.

Found my glasses.
Learned my screenname's been blocked.
Managed to clear up Thursday night for a definite night of good music.
All good times.

I'm hoping future posts'll be filled with wit that's up to par.
Trying my best not to use this as an outlet to vent frustrations with.
Cuz that's not what the original point of this Online Journal Thingy was.

So yea, I was driving home from work the other day when I passed up a delivery truck.
T & A Transport.
Great company name right?
If I put that on a skimpy shirt do you think it'd be possible to make an obscene amount of money selling it?

Questions, good times.
Like the game Never Have I Ever.

Never Have I Ever driven more than an hour for sexual intercourse.
At least not yet.

Fun links to follow, click away!

Interpretation of Fall Out Boy by Andrew Mathas
Interpretation of AFI by Andrew Mathas

Jo Koy is an up and coming comedian.
The Tonight Show set he did that's the intro video to his site was said to be the only set that got a standing ovation from the audience for "a long, long, loooong time."
After you're done checking that out, watch the "Leave Me Alone" video clip in his multimedia section.
That one gave me a good laugh.
Thank you for that Jo Koy.

Has anyone seen my glasses?

The Random Quote:
"Well I'm not okay, I'm not O-fucking-kay!" - My Chemical Romance

Because standard marriage proposals at a restaurant are boring, here were the ideas that were running around my head last year.
Still enough time to set one of these up for your significant other on Valentine's Day.
You unoriginal bastard.

Fun Ideas for Marriage Proposal from my Personal Inventory

The Improv Show - This involves having the right connections or being incredibly smooth. Basically, you want to setup ahead of time with the performers a game that involves a volunteer from the audience and a song improvised on the spot. Are you getting ahead of me yet? You're significant other is "randomly selected" to be the person sung to that night. In the form of a love song, that ends up with the line "Will you marry [your name here]?" Hopefully you won't get shot down in front of everyone.

The Doliphin Interaction - Seaworld, cash, and the right amount of charm. Another one that involves setup ahead of time. You just need to convince the trainers to help you deliver the ring to your significant other. For example, inside the mouth of one of the fishes you feed the dolphin. Hopefully you won't get shot down in front of everyone, and the dolphins. Cuz dolphins can be mean if they want to be.

Standard restaurant Proposal: Reg Style - Again, one that involves setup ahead of time. Can you see a running theme here? This involves the help of the waiting staff and the permission of the restaurant owner. Some don't like the unwanted attention from theatrics. Theatrics you ask? During the dessert portion of the meal, you are going to be choking on something in your dessert. When one of the friendly staff saves you w/ the heimlich(sp?) maneuver, you are going to cough up the ring somewhere in the vicinity of your significant other. Hopefully you won't get shot down in front of everyone. This would probably be the situation that would bring the most pity. Lots of work and no results sucks majorly.

Aerial View - Yes, setup ahead of time. Simple really. Because the setup involves you booking time on a hot air balloon ride that ends around Sunset. That would be when you propose, cuz the view would be amazing. Hopefully you won't get shot down in front of everyone. It takes awhile for the balloon to settle 'fore you can safely exit.

Concert - One word: setup. How much needs to be done is dependent on what you want to do. In my book, you can either a) have it subtly thrown in during the announcements "...your headlights are on. And will [significant other] let [you] know if they will marry them so we can hear more music?" or b) during the concert from the performer "I want to give a shout-out to [you] who is going to propose to [significant other] right now." Hopefully you won't get shot down in front of everyone.

Funeral - No setup. This is a joke. If you wanted to take this one seriously, you might want to check your mental health. You could also ask me in private, cuz a few ideas just popped into my head.

Trip to the Vet - This actually happened to a friend of mine. Setup is involved, but it wasn't planned. Basically, the dog ate the ring, had upset tummy, taken to vet by couple, and discovered by x-ray to be the ring. "So...uh. Will you marry me?" Had to wait for the ring to pass thru his digestive system. Good times.

Love making - Setup is dependent on when you want to propose. During: put the ring somewhere within reach of you. Before: Put ring in underwear to be discovered by significant other. After: Ring somewhere in reach. If you were doing it doggystyle, you only need your significant other to standup to propose properly. Hopefully you won't get shot down, cuz that's a buzzkill.

There are more, but these were the more interesting ideas I came up with.
Any guesses as to which one I was leaning to?
If you said Funeral you've got issues to deal with.
Correct answer would've been Dolphin Interaction because it would've had the most sentimental value for her.
Would've also been able to get more use out of my Silver Passport to the park.

Fun thing about SeaWorld.
We ordered the 4 passport funpak deal.
For myself, my younger brother, and our significant others at the time.
Brother and his girl never used it so it was just wasted money, but I'm digressing.
The last names on the cards were: Mose, Mose, Chen, Espiritu.
The credit card these were charged to were from a Mose account.
So which family does SeaWorld address all the information to our house to?
The Espiritu family.

So yea, I need alcohol in my system.
Than I can detox tomorrow morning while doing the laundry and using our home foot spa kit.
Possibly pick up El Goob(younger brother) from the train station.
Than head to work.

Take care, stay out of jail, and all that other good stuff people.

The Random Quote:
"If you want some ding-a-ling, just give me a ring-a-ling." - 90's hip-hop

All the customers at work today putting together gift packages kinda put me in a downer today.
Because two months from today would've been our 4 year anniversary.
Apparently I'm the only one that still cares 'bout that.
Irritates the fuck out of me too.
That there's still a large part of me that still wants to marry her.

James Blunt- Goodbye My Lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.(x2)
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James Blunt, added to my personal list of awesomeness defined.
Because if awesomeness isn't a word, it should be.

Why this song as my personal favorite off the album?
Cuz it's what I'm trying to get myself to believe.
What's the point if I'm the only one that wants to put in work?
Why am I still thinking 'bout her on a daily basis if she doesn't even give me the time of day?
Why am I going on myspace every few days to check out her profile and piece together her current life through her comments?

Why?
Such a simple and poignant question.

Kinda like...
Has anyone seen a license plate holder that says: "I'd rather be driving" yet?
Or how 'bout: "I'd rather be sleeping"

Apologies for the emotional rollercoaster on display online the past few months.

On the next post: Fun Ideas for Marriage Proposals from My Personal Mental Inventory
Cuz I won't be needing them.

The Random Quote:
"But it's time to face the truth. I will never be with you." - James Blunt